Fourth Friday after Four Years

Rose Periwinkle, close-up
Rose periwinkle, close-up. Thanks to Jenn Forman Orth for the ID! Click here for the large view.

The sun had begun to set when I pulled out of the driveway. I would take the county road in a direction other than my usual route, watching for the Citgo station and the one-floor, nondescript building beside it.

"Enjoy a family friendly evening with live music, poetry and story telling," read the newspaper clipping I'd taped above my desk. "The circle is offered at the same time every fourth Friday."

I was to learn that this was the third meeting of this particular group, an offshoot of the Woodview Coffeehouse, a much larger gathering in Citrus County that has gone on for years and will be meeting next Friday night. I've lived in this area for almost four years now. I'd heard of similar events but hadn't gotten the details until now, nor had one occurred so close to home. Having gravitated to open mics in New York, New Jersey, and Massachusetts, I was about to step into Heaven on Earth....

Mary tells me she keeps having to remind herself that I'm shy, because that isn't how I come across. I have a good stage presence. My father was a professional musician. My mother took her acting background into her teaching. In one way or another, I've followed in both their footsteps. I'd be lying if I said I didn't get stage fright, because sometimes I do; but the thrill of performing more than makes up for the occasional tremor in my knees.

On Friday night, my easy smile and laugh made up for my stumble at the church entrance, when my left sneaker decided it wanted to stay outside instead.

With the exception of The Music Loft in Cambridge, Massachusetts, this was the one gathering I'd attended in which spoken word performers were in the minority. There were two of us among a terrific group of musicians. I'm mainly a spoken word performer, but I live in both camps. At The Music Loft, a bunch of us had come together to jam, and most of the time my instrument was my scat-singing.

Spoken word open mics I've attended have included those at Manhattan's Speakeasy Cafe and Gay Women's Alternative (at about the same time Mary was participating in the GWA in Washington, DC, more than a decade before she and I first met); Hoboken's Beat'N'Path Cafe; Stone Soup Poets (still going strong!) and She's Leaving Home Cafe in Boston; and many others, including some where I've featured. I don't know how many of those gatherings have survived over the years. I'd seen The Music Loft and She's Leaving Home falter, and I learned during my visit to Hoboken in 1996 that the Beat'N'Path is gone. (That cafe, which also hosted music performances, is mentioned in this article about Hoboken by Andrew L. Yarrow, from the November 15, 1985, New York Times. I'd discovered the place during my graduate student days at Stevens Institute of Technology several years earlier.)

This past Friday night, I combined my media for the first time. Performers were allowed 15 minutes or 3 pieces. I opened with extemporaneous, a cappella scatting after saying in a brief intro that I'd started this kind of singing almost 20 years ago, as my way of thanking the forest after a day of hiking (chronicled in "The Unexpected Trails"). Then I read an excerpt from Covenant and ended with "First Things First." That poem is newly-published in the Winter 2007 issue of Harp-Strings Poetry Journal and is also posted here.

After the first round of performances, we jammed. I joined four guitars and a cello and had a blast -- sometimes scatting as a background instrument, sometimes singing in harmony where I knew the lyrics -- though I was choking up at the end of "Where Have All The Flowers Gone?"

After years away from this kind of communion, I felt as though I'd stepped into Pure Magic and Unadulterated Joy.

The next day, over lunch at Stumpknockers on the Square, my friend Marge commented, "You don't seem shy to me, either." So I told her about my differences onstage and offstage.

She asked, "Are you onstage now?"

I thought for a moment, then said, "It's hard for me to tell."

She, her husband Bruce, and I shared a great afternoon in the county seat of Inverness. I usually come into town for Inverness Writers and to pick up the antigen for Mary's allergy shots, but I don't often drive as far as the town center. We browsed through shops I'd never entered and relaxed at a park by the lake into which I hadn't before set foot.

Set foot in the park, that is. A sign cautions people against setting foot in the lake because of the alligators, though not everyone follows that advice.

(I grew up in Brooklyn, but didn't tour the Statue of Liberty until Mary and I visited New York in 1996 and climbed to the top. In similar fashion I became a tourist in Inverness on Saturday.)

Before lunch, I'd found this rose periwinkle (in close-up above) outside a storefront.

Rose Periwinkle
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According to Floridata.com, Catharanthus roseus (Family Apocynaceae) is also called Madagascar periwinkle. Native to Madagascar, it "has escaped cultivation and naturalized in most of the tropical world where it often becomes a rampant weed. It is established in several areas in the southern U.S. Madagascar periwinkle is grown commercially for its medicinal uses in Australia, Africa, India and southern Europe."

Floridata continues, "Madagascar periwinkle contains a virtual cornucopia of toxic and useful alkaloids. The leaves were sometimes smoked for their narcotic (but dangerous) effects. The plant has been used for centuries to treat diabetes, high blood pressure, asthma, constipation and menstrual problems. More recently, extracts from Madagascar periwinkle have been shown to be effective in the treatment of various kinds of leukemia, skin cancer, lymph cancer, breast cancer and Hodgkin's disease. Indeed, Madagascar periwinkle is a modern day success story in the search for naturally occurring anticancer drugs....Madagascar periwinkle is poisonous if ingested or smoked. It has caused poisoning in grazing animals. Even under a doctor's supervision for cancer treatment, products from Madagascar periwinkle produce undesirable side effects."

When I do make it to the town center, I usually visit the relatively new Deco Cafe, where this time I got directions to nearby Wallace Brooks Park.

Lake at Wallace Brooks Park, Inverness, FL

Conduits are flanked by Cypress trees and Spanish Moss. This park is a short walk from the Citrus County courthouse.

Bruce was the first among us to spot this Limpkin, which I'd initially thought was a juvenile ibis. According to my Peterson field guide and Cornell, that's a common mistake.

Limpkin Series
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Aramus guarauna, the only species worldwide in the Aramidae Family. "An unusual bird of southern swamps and marshes, the Limpkin reaches the northern limits of its breeding range in Florida," says the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. "There, it feeds almost exclusively on apple snails, which it extracts from their shells with its long bill. Its screaming cry is unmistakable and evocative....Although it resembles herons and ibises in general form, the Limpkin is generally considered to be more closely related to rails and cranes."

In addition to being resident in Florida, the Limpkin ranges throughout the West Indies, on the coasts of Mexico and Central America, and across most of South America.

I was thrilled to learn that my "Swamp Lily" photograph was one of those showcased on Patchwork, broadcast this past week on our local cable TV station WYKE. The photo is shown in close-up in the top shot and at bottom right in the bottom shot.

"Swamp Lily" on TV

It's one of two photographs I've donated to the fund-raiser Savor the Art of Citrus County. Left to right: Sally Graubarth, Savor the Art chairman; Frank DiGiovanni, Inverness city manager; and Neale Brennen, host of Patchwork. Sally and Frank will co-emcee the fund-raiser's live auction.

WYKE owns the show's copyright, so I haven't posted any video. Below is a transcription from a shade over two minutes out of the program:

Frank: I couldn't even imagine not having the culture and the artistry of music or dance or sculpture or painting. You can't even imagine it. It's in our everyday lives and we don't bring that out. That's what this event needs to start to do, and that's what we need to do on a county-wide level, to the entire community. Not that they have to attend all these events. They just have to realize the appreciation level that we all have for culture and art.

Neale: And we have to make it personal, too. It's got to be a personal experience.

Frank: It's got to be a personal experience. And it would be wonderful for everyone eventually to attend several of these events.

Sally: And people will comment that they don't know what's good art. You don't have to know what's good or otherwise. if you love it, then it hits, and it works for you. And it does give you something beautiful to look at every day of your life. And it makes you happy.

Neale: I think the more events like this, whether it's festivals or auctions, I think it makes us more comfortable around art.... It's not something for somebody else. It can actually be something for me. And it is something.

Sally: It's astounding, the economic impact that it has on a community. Astounding.

Frank: Ladies, I've got to ask the help of both of you at some point, to help bring this very cultured outlook in, because that's one thing we need to improve in our entire community, throughout the community. We need a presence of culture in Inverness, and we need a stronger presence in Citrus. You're helping to create that....

Neale: I think sometimes it's so much easier to look at a community and say, "Oh, you need a restaurant, you need a hospital, you need a school."

Frank: You can find that. You can easily find that.

Neale: Yes. But we need to stay on that. What we need are art centers and we need our future --

Sally: And we need to encourage children, and viewers, and parents to let their children experience what art and culture look like.


Hot Off the Rollerball

Free-Write
Part of today's output during our weekly free-writing meeting, next to a container of prompts.

Four of us -- we usually range from around three to ten, depending on the week -- sat around a table in the back room. I popped open a small plastic container that held narrow strips of paper, each with a prompt. I read the slip out loud and we bent to our notebooks for several minutes of off-the-cuff writing.

These are typed from the rough, handwritten drafts. I usually start with a kernel of an idea, whatever pops into my mind, and let my subconscious take it from there....

Prompt: "Dear Animal"

Dear Moose,

Your beer is chilling in the fridge, just as your note requested. I knew it was from you -- I'd recognize your hoof print anywhere, and you're the only ungulate I've been renting a room to lately. And the scrapes on the door from your antlers were a dead giveaway.

I'd asked the ladies if they'd seen you. One had, and told me you were trolling in the woods out back of the river, crossing the beaver dam and following black bear scat in your desperate meanderings. She'd heard you calling for mates.

She wanted you, you know. But she knew she wasn't your type. Not tall enough, not stocky enough. You'd told her she needed a stag, not the likes of you.

You should have seen her, pawing at the ground with tears in her eyes, her ears flicking forward and back, the little tremor in her snow-white doe's tail.

Not the kind of tail you wanted.

Not the kind of tail you didn't get, either, that was now a cold lump on the asphalt, next to a crumpled chassis. Every time I put a beer in the fridge for you I wonder if I'll get a call from the forest ranger: "I'm sorry, Miss, but your houseguest has become a casualty of reckless driving."

I worry about the cars and trucks when I'm not obsessed with hunting season. I have nightmares of spotting your disembodied head on a wooden plaque nailed above somebody's mantle, your dead eyes surveying brandy snifters and insipid chitchat, never to spread your impatient seed among the fairer sex of moosedom.

A rifle shot cracks beneath a glittering, starlit sky, and I freeze.

I peer inside the fridge. I've gotten the beer you like, Labatt. A good Canadian beer whose taste reminds you of caribou trails and Yukon tundra.

A dainty hoof taps my door, too demure to have come from you. When I open it my doe-eyed friend trots into the cabin and bends her legs beneath her before the fireplace. And I know what she is steeling herself to tell me.

I take the Labatt outside and spill it on the grass in your memory, then go for the Scotch.

Prompt: "Hero"

He wore a turquoise-colored salad bowl on his head and swim goggles over his eyes. His cape was a torn, threadbare sheet that bore the stains of too many wetted beds and that smelled faintly of bleach years after it became reborn as a costume.

The costume's bottom half was more malleable: pajama pants one year, swim trunks the next, or a combination of the two. Magic bracelets fashioned from wayward twist ties. Rubber boots meant to repel evil as readily as slush.

"Hey, dork!" the bullies called from down the block. "What are your super powers?"

He didn't know.

He didn't care, either. Being a hero was enough of a challenge.

He didn't jump off the roof or even off the couch, despite his turquoise helmet that made his nose twitch with the memory of vinegar. Coupled with the bleach in his cape it was an otherworldly odor. He had come from another dimension, one where he could levitate or see through steel or read people's minds with such ease that everybody did it, where such powers were no big deal.

Being a proper superhero, he thought they were no big deal in this dimension, either.

Instead he squatted in the vegetable garden of a postage stamp-sized yard, the ratty hem of his cape unraveling in the mud, and he watched the seedlings grow. They told him the bullies didn't matter.

The next day the bunnies had cropped the seedlings to the ground and the boy turned to spiders instead, and watched the females eat their young before they spun anew. They caught another suitor who soon disappeared. They laid more egg balls and waited for them to hatch.

The boy drew his muddy cape around his shoulders and thought. He adjusted his helmet and wiped his goggles. Dirt trickled from his pajama bottoms and nestled in his rubber boots.

The next time the bullies taunted him he smiled back at them. When they asked him what his super powers were, he almost told them.

But they wouldn't understand the wisdom of the garden and its drama of life and death. Super powers were supposed to be special. One did not practice them in quiet solitude.

He kept the secret under his plastic bowl and between his ears, rising from the mud when his mother called him to dinner.


Nabbed! -- with plant ID update

Southern Emerald Moth, Dorsal View
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My picture-taking didn't disturb this moth as much as it disturbed the peace....

I was taking photos over at the "post office pond" when a police car pulled up and an officer motioned me over to ask what I was doing. Seems someone had seen me exhibiting "suspicious behavior" at the post office.

My "suspicious behavior" was capturing this lovely green moth on pixel. It was perched on the post office window, and in my usual thoroughness I photographed its underside (ventral view) through the window, the dorsal shot shown above, and a head-on shot that had me leaning a little into the glass to get the right angle. Nothing out of the ordinary -- that is, for me.

Ventral (Underside) View
Southern Emerald Moth, Ventral View

As I told Mary when I got home, I am now "a real photographer!" because I've been detained by a cop for doing what photographers do to get the shot.

I told the man from the sheriff's office about the pretty green moth and how I had a bunch of field guides I was going to consult when I got home. I offered to show him the picture, which I did, scrolling back through shots of palm leaves and robins until I reached the image of my little friend perched innocently on federal government property, that being the post office window.

Head-On View
Southern Emerald Moth, Front View
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I told the officer -- a pleasant fellow originally from Alaska -- that if he wanted to, he could check with the folks at my bank, who knew my reputation and had asked me not long ago to identify the "big green bug" hanging out near the drive-through window (which, I added, I knew without looking that it would be a katydid, based on their description).

Mary said, "You should have told him about..." and proceeded to mention the guy who'd brought me to an employee-only area so that I could photograph and identify a spider. Actually, given the circumstances behind that shot, maybe it's better I didn't bring it up.

Convinced I had nothing sinister in mind (we had a nice chat about Alaska, which I'd visited in 1992), the cop proceeded on his merry way before I had a chance to give him a flyer about Covenant -- which also has my website address on it in case he wanted to look at my photos. But I noted his name, so I can drop off the moth ID and a flyer for him at the local sheriff's office. Why pass up an opportunity to advertise?

Turns out none of my relevant Audubon field guides -- to Florida, to the Southeast (the book technically stops at Georgia), and to Insects and Spiders of North America -- has this little critter. Hence it was on to Bugguide.Net, where I learned it is a Southern Emerald Moth: Synchlora frondaria, Family Geometridae (Geometrid Moths), Subfamily Geometrinae (Emeralds).

I probably looked even more suspicious photographing robins (Turdus migratorius, Family Turdidae) hanging out by the bank, since the bank is closed on Saturdays. The post office was closed, too, but I still had access to my PO Box.

Robins 'Round the Drain Puddle
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Robins By the Bank
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This pair was hanging out by the "post office pond":

Robins By the Pond
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I crossed an empty lot (it's been mowed, so it might be put to use for something soon) to photograph these red leaves with white flowers growing in a neighbor's yard. Thanks to djd in New Zealand for identifying this plant as Bougainvillea. Floridata does have a page on the plant here, which I'd managed to miss.

Red Leaves, White Flowers 6, Species TBD
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Red Leaves, White Flowers 7, Species TBD
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Red Leaves, White Flowers 10, Species TBD
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The "post office pond" had additional visitors. My Peterson field guide to birds of eastern and central North America helped me identify what I'm pretty sure is a Greater Yellowlegs (Tringa melanoleuca, 14 inches), though I couldn't get close enough to take a definitive shot. Two similar-looking species, the Lesser Yellowlegs (Tringa flavipes, 10-11 inches) and the Upland Sandpiper (Bartramia longicauda, 11-1/2 inches), are closer in size to the Killdeer (Charadrius vociferus, 9-11 inches). Both the Greater and Lesser Yellowlegs winter in this area. Any Upland Sandpiper would have come through only on its migration route, but this is the time of year for migration.

A better look at the beak would have helped. I'm voting for Greater Yellowlegs based mainly on its size in relation to the Killdeer. The top shot of this series shows a Killdeer on the left and the Yellowlegs on the right. The Greater and Lesser Yellowlegs and the Upland Sandpiper are in the Family Scolopacidae (Sandpipers and Phalaropes). The Killdeer is in the Family Charadriidae (Plovers).

Greater Yellowlegs Series
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This palm frond has been like this for a while, far back from the road. Until I decrease my distance from it, I keep having to remind myself that I'm not looking at a bird (or two birds) floating on the water.

Half-Submerged Palm Frond
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Today's weather was gorgeous, with a sky almost free of clouds and terrific afternoon light. This is a shot of a spillway at the pond, taken when I was farther than usual from the road:

Spillway
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Beside that spillway, palm leaves were catching rays from a descending sun.

Late Afternoon Palm
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My studio clean-up continues. I now actually have a desk and a floor that I can see, though the place still suffers from "piles."

Hi, Honey, I'm Home!

Halved Faces
Part of an original self-portrait photo is up top. The two bottom shots consist of one half and then the other of my face, each mirror-imaged and combined with its original counterpart.

My weekly free-writing group takes prompts home, in addition to writing off-the-cuff during our meetings. Over the years, several members have brought in collections of prompts. Thursday's writings followed sequentially from a short phrase ("the big lie") and a single word ("ownership"). There's no "wrong" way to handle these; they are meant only to get one's creative juices flowing.

Several websites offer ideas, among them CreateWritingPrompts.com, WritersDigest.com, and WritingFix.com.

Our take-home assignment had come from a collection of situational prompts courtesy of a member who prefers to be known only as "Esmeralda." This was her offering:

"While at the grocery store you bump into an oddly familiar face -- it's your evil twin! The evil twin follows you home and tries to convince your family (or friends) that she's (or he's) you. How did you prove to your loved ones that you are the real you and the twin is an impostor?"

I dashed this one off Wednesday night....

I noticed the smirk first. The smirk hid secrets and machinations. Indeed, my evil twin had kept herself hidden in the bread aisle, her back to me as I bent toward the crackers. She was fidgety, pacing. Only a glimpse of her three-quarter profile revealed her to me and gave me a moment's shock, the feeling of gazing into a dark mirror.

She didn't stand behind me at the checkout counter; that would have looked too strange to the cashier. Instead she left without making a purchase, but I wasn't to know that until later. At first I thought she waited in a different line, then thought it had all been my imagination. But my walk home was short, with a plastic bag in each hand, and I was halfway to my door before I realized I heard not one but two sets of footfalls on the darkened road, and saw too many sets of shadows thrown by the streetlamps around us.

I heard her chortle behind me, and the soft words, "I'll have you out of the picture in no time."

"Really," I said.

Red light pulsed, similar to the light I wore around my neck to make my presence known to traffic in the dark. But hers was different. I turned around and saw that the red beams joined others: silver and blue, an unearthly green along the rim of a medallion inscribed with symbols that looked part Rune, part abstract sand painting.

"Passage to my universe," she said, slipping the light into the left pocket of jeans that looked just like mine. "That's where you're going, once I've established my foothold here."

"Nice toy," I offered. "Obviously your Wal-Mart is more sophisticated than ours."

"Nice try," she answered. "You don't set foot in Wal-Mart." She pursed her lips, cradling her chin in her hand. "Except for that one time when the battery in Mary's truck died and you needed a quick replacement. You bought a one-year battery there, as I recall."

I said nothing, feeling for the first time that I had something to worry about. But she had that interdimensional toy and I didn't, and that meant something was different between the universes. That is, in addition to our temperaments.

We walked past the retention pond around the corner from the house. How different were we? Had she come out here at two in the morning to record the frog songs during the rains of Tropical Storm Alberto? Had she photographed the dragonfly perched on a high, bare branch, or the flowers catching the light of a setting sun? What did evil twins do when they weren't being evil?

"What sent you here?" I asked.

"An assignment," she said. "And yes, I did record the frogs and take the photographs, just like you."

I frowned. "Then what makes us so different?"

"The assignment," she said again. "Trust me, I can't tell you anything more than that."

I didn't know if she posed a question of free will or of imagination. Would a simple command, three lines of typed text on a strip of paper, be enough to free my own darkness, enough to make me unself-consciously challenge my non-nefarious counterpart?

She quickened her pace and took the lead. I began to despair, seeing that she knew which driveway to turn up. She shoved her hand into her right jeans pocket and drew out the same key fob as mine, with the same collection of keys. She knew to open the screen door so that it didn't slam against the wall, a change in the piston that had occurred only a few days ago.

I wanted to run past her, screaming to Mary, "She isn't me! Don't believe her!" But something stopped me. Instead I ducked to the side, almost falling over the unruly piles of dried and decayed artemisia that we hadn't put out with the yard waste because Mary had plans for it, though what plans I have no idea. I stopped myself from falling against the hurricane shutters and making a racket.

From inside the house I heard Daisy hissing a blue streak and smiled with tears in my eyes. You can't fool a cat.

Then I heard a resounding crash, followed by the dissonant chorus of piano keys being hit all at once.

That didn't make sense. There were posts separating the entranceway from the piano and its cover was closed anyway. If anything, my evil twin would have instead tripped over the bowls of coffee grounds I'd planned to spread around the holly bushes, or the old wooden shutters still lying on the floor, or a mess of gardening tools, or stannous fluoride tooth gel, or piles of books, or the plastic trash can I'd brought in that morning. We had no end of clutter, whose configuration changed on a daily basis. If my evil twin was truly my twin, she'd have known that and been prepared, flipping the switch by the door to turn on the fluorescent light in the corner in order to find her way in the dark. Because if Mary weren't sleeping, she'd be using a minimum of light as she trolled online for the latest news.

I rushed inside and flipped the switch myself, then stared along with Mary as my evil twin lay half-in, half-out of both the posts and the piano. We watched as eerie medallion light blinked through denim before my other self faded like a dream and vanished entirely. Daisy gazed from the entrance to the hallway, fully puffed. Red whined for food.

Mary asked, "What did she want?"

"To take my place," I said.

She shook her head. "Never happen." She turned toward plaintive meows. "Are you going to feed him?"

I ducked into the kitchen and started opening a can. "How could you tell it wasn't me?"

"It was you," she said. "I've just learned to ignore you when you get like that."


Critters of the Evening

Merry Melipotis

Merry Melipotis Moth, Melipotis jucunda, Family Erebidae (or Noctuidae, depending on whom you check). I photographed this little one (about an inch long) shortly after 7 PM on the window of our local post office. The bottom two shots show the underside, taken from inside the post office. The reflected flash of red in the top shot is my walking light. More detail (especially relevant for the top shot) is in the large view. Thanks to Bob Patterson at Bugguide.Net for the ID.

Based on text from the University of Alberta, I believe this is a male. Habitat (at least in Alberta) is wooded riparian shrub. Life history is poorly known, according to the university, which adds, "There is a single brood each year, with adults flying in late spring [I assume in Alberta]. Adults are nocturnal and come to light." Caterpillars eat willow (Salix), catclaw (Acacia) and oak (Quercus). This species ranges from the southern USA and north to New Jersey, the southern Prairie Provinces, and Vancouver Island.

Not far from the Merry Melipotis perched a much smaller Wine-tinted Oenobotys....

Wine-tinted Oenobotys

Oenobotys vinotinctalis, Family Crambidae (Crambid Snout Moths). Only about a quarter-inch long, this one showed up large enough in my viewfinder for me to identify the family as Crambidae because I could see its snout. Thanks to Eric Haley at Bugguide.Net for the ID.

This species ranges from North Carolina to Florida, west to Texas, and also occurs in Mexico and Central America.

On our way to the post office, I captured this female jumping spider from the inside top of our neighbor's front door frame and escorted her outside for a photo shoot on wide-ruled notebook paper.

Phidippus otiosus, female

Phidippus otiosus, Family Salticidae (Jumping Spiders). At about 20mm long this is the largest Salticidae I've come across so far. More detail is in the large view.

I knew this was a Salticidae from the way she was moving. Thanks to these folks at Bugguide.Net for helping me narrow down the ID: Herschel Raney for pointing me toward the genus Phidippus, and Jay Barnes and Jeff Hollenbeck for identifying the species otiosus.

Professor Wayne Maddison (University of British Columbia) explains that the excellent vision of jumping spiders "allows them to hunt much as do cats, spotting prey from long distances, creeping up then pouncing using their jumping ability. Although a jumping spider can jump more than fifty times its body length, none of its legs has enlarged muscles. The power for jumping probably comes from a quick contraction of muscles in the front part of the body increasing the blood pressure, which causes the legs to extend rapidly much as in the toy frogs that hop when you squeeze a bulb."

Maddison continues, "The brain of a jumping spider includes a comparatively large region for visual processing. In fact, the brain of a small jumping spider may take up about the same volume in proportion to its body as does ours."


Paper Moon

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Yesterday morning, Mary mused, "I think the paper should have been delivered by now."

It was early. I was dressed. The St. Petersburg Times was out there, waiting for me. So was a clear sky, and this in the east....

I photographed the shot up top at 5:47 AM (all times mentioned are EST), using a 4-second exposure at f/4.5. The Moon keeps company with Antares, the brightest star in the constellation Scorpius. The longer exposure brings out Earthshine, which occurs during crescent phases. Here, the dimmer part of the Moon reflects light from the Earth (doubly-reflected light, since the Earth reflects light from the Sun), while the crescent reflects direct sunlight.

The name Antares is Greek for "rival of Mars," since Ares, the Greek god of war, had his counterpart in the Roman war god Mars. The red color of the star Antares resembles that of the planet Mars.

We're in Cleaning Mode. I've finally moved the decades-old, bug-eaten bed out of my studio and moved in plastic file drawers that have sat empty on an unused desk. I'd had visions of using the bed during all-nighters in the studio, but it just became a horizontal file space instead. When I need to lie down I can go into the bedroom. The mattress and box spring sit in the garage preparatory to being trashed. The frame is still in decent-enough shape to be donated.

The bedroom desk, which never lived up to its potential there, either, will come in here when I've cleared a space for it.

The place still looks like a disaster, but at least now it looks like an intermediate-cleaning-stage disaster. There's light at the end of the clutter -- or so I keep telling myself.

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Photographed at 5:46 AM, using a 1/3-second exposure at f/4.5. You can see a hint of craters at the terminator.

Earlier, at 5:44 AM, I used a 4-second exposure at f/4 for a wider shot. In addition to the Moon (with Earthshine) and Antares, we have Jupiter at the upper left of frame.

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Two faint stars also show up above and below the moon. I believe these are Sigma ("Al Niyat") and Tau Scorpii, respectively. Al Niyat is Arabic for "the arteries" and used to apply to both Sigma and Tau because they both lay near Antares, seen as the "heart" of the scorpion.


A Meme and a Preview

Paul Decelles ("The force that through...") has tagged me for the meme that asks for a quote from page 123, sentences 6 through 8, of the "nearest book." His tag included a not-so-subtle hint that maybe I could take something from my manuscript of Covenant....

The quote from his book-at-hand is simply luscious prose from Barbara Hambly's Circle of the Moon. Enough to leave me feeling thoroughly intimidated, especially since the corresponding spot on my marked-up printout is rather short and sweet by comparison. But here goes:

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When they were far enough from the house WindTamer said, "Don't worry, I have meat for him."

She whispered, "I was going to go tomorrow. What's so urgent?"


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Sounds bare-bones next to Hambly's rich tapestry. On the other hand, this gives me a chance to scout around for some of my own descriptive passages, just to show that I can do those, too. For instance, these four sentences are from the point of view of my female protagonist's mother:

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Passed from villager to villager in Basc's collective outpouring of grief, ShadowGrass stumbled more from vertigo than pain. Her identity had settled somewhere beyond her body, floating in the open, out of her reach. She was a cloud passing between the pines, casting its shadow on the dirt roads, marveling at the wailing crowd convulsing like a great beast--finding, losing, finding herself again, the lone Masari woman they had swallowed whole. She was a red-tufted rag wrenched at the seams, crumpled into a wrinkled ball, and finally tossed frayed back into the woods as the bloody sun sank.

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And a bit with my protagonist, TripStone, taken from Covenant's opening chapter:

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Leaving his provisions behind, the Yata turned his back on the hunter and walked away. He looked upon an arched gateway shimmering in sun and shadow, raising mist. Yata scripture told of such a portal sent by the gods. If a Masari hunter were a skilled shooter, one might step effortlessly into the next existence.

The gateway floated ever closer. The calls of hatchlings above him transformed into chimes resounding from the world to come, summoning him. He was not afraid.

TripStone dropped to her knees and lifted her rifle, seeing only Ulik. As he moved in mid-stride, she fired a single bullet through his heart and watched him plummet forward into the grass.

She pocketed the parchment in her vest and spilled the remaining ink from its vessel onto the ground. She replaced the vessel and the other provisions in their pouches, then placed the Yata's belt in a satchel woven with Masari and Yata hair and lined with a stretched Yata stomach. She slung the filled satchel over her shoulder.

She reached the dead man and spent a moment in silent meditation. Then she carefully plugged the entry and exit holes left by her bullet with bone and resin, draped him over her shoulder, and followed the paths back to home and family.

On this Meat Day she was not the first Masari to return with prey, but neither was she the last. The other successful hunters were already back in their cottages, preparing the bodies. TripStone stood numbly as the census takers recorded her catch. When quota was met they would blow their horns to call the remaining hunters back to Crossroads.

She did not acknowledge the small crowd of villagers gathered to watch their providers, fixing her and the others with looks of gratitude and fear. Their hands have remained clean, their guilt not her guilt.


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Nothing like feelings of intimidation to bring out a little self-promotion. Thanks for the nudge, Paul. :) Theoretically I'm supposed to tag people, but I'll just invite anyone to jump in who wants to.

I'd heard at a panel during Necronomicon that when a publisher asks for "three chapters" (as opposed to a specific requirement, like "the first three chapters"), that still means three sequential chapters. In one of my marketing forays I'd gone for variety instead, choosing chapters that differed in their pacing, tone, etc. One with a sex scene, one with a drunk scene, one with a little levity and another with some catharsis. (I'm talking trilogy; I had nine chapters to play with.)

Nope. Doesn't work that way. Sequential chapters, I was told, to show that one can hold a coherent story line together. Good to know.

I've been popping back and forth between tweaking Book #2 and drafting Book #5. Going over the first has given me a device to use for the second, a way to convey information that draws parallels between volumes and characters without being an out-and-out recap. Time will tell if I'm pulling it off right.

Well, time and my workshop group, but they have to get through #4 first.

Early Birds

I've taken better shots of robins, but these guys (they're all males) are far ahead of the usual curve. Normally we see them around the last week of January, but Mary believes she'd seen them as early as late December. The birds here are enjoying a drink courtesy of our rain barrel cover. They skedaddled when our cat Daisy hopped up to the window to get a better look.

Meanwhile, I've donated two framed photos to an art center fund-raiser coming up at the end of February:

Swamp Lily

Swamp Lily

and Silver Dollars

Silver Dollars 2

The swamp lily (a member of the amaryllis family) blooms all year 'round and alternates between the gorgeous petals shown here and this hideous thing, plus stages in-between. Several lilies grow outside a relatively new housing complex in the neighborhood.

The silver dollars (tweaked using MS Paint and MS Photo Editor) have been around for as long as I can remember. I fashioned the crystalline frame from the vase in which they've sat for decades. Here's a more subdued shot, taken without flash, of the actual dried plant. Although I was never told so explicitly, I assume the silver dollars had been given to my parents on their wedding day in 1956.

The fund-raiser will include both a regular and a silent auction. The regular auction is juried, so it would be cool if either of these shots gets into that. In any case, it'll be interesting to see what they end up going for -- or if they go at all, for that matter.

I spent part of today hedge-trimming, dressed in a tee shirt. We've got a bunch of holly bushes that harbor azaleas. They also include a hodgepodge of trees courtesy of seeds dropped from passing birds. I love the wildness, even though it can make the hedge rather shaggy if I let it go for too long. Normally the azaleas bloom in March, but with the robins' early arrival I'm on the lookout for any changes in the flower calendar. Even this early in the year, the air already fills with the sounds of riding mowers.


You Oughta Be in Pictures

Camera Self-Portrait
My camera gets impatient and starts without me.

Why I need professional help....

The good news is, Mary's finally found a dentist she likes. Loves, mayhap. Good guy.

The bad news (for us) is, he's preparing to retire in a few years.

The good news is, he's already setting up his post-retirement job as a studio portrait photographer, and his brochure looks great. I just happen to need a publicity photo.

The bad news (for us) is, he and his wife (whom I know through the art center) will move permanently out of state, where their new studio is.

The good news is, I don't need to get the photo to Koboca until July, and he might be able to bring back some equipment before then.

I've experimented with doing my own shots (taken initially in color and coverted to black & white), but I frankly don't have the equipment for it.

There's the Up Against The Wall shot:

Self-Portrait by Porch Wall

The Nature Gal Who Can't Look at the Sun shot:

Self-Portrait by Dwarf Elm

And the Mad Artist shot:

Self-Portrait, Bathroom Close-Up

I took the first one on our front porch, the second by our dwarf elm, and the third in the bathroom. For that last shot, I held my camera at arm's length and checked the reflection of my LED screen in the mirror. That was before I started monkeying around with the timed-release feature.

Nope, I think I'll leave this one up to the pros.

Speaking of photos, I got a real kick out of Oliver Hammond's (Olivander's) "Ode to Jack Kerouac," at http://www.flickr.com/photos/olivander/349685340/.

Speaking of shooting, I recently saw the film, They Shoot Horses, Don't They? on TCM, and not for the first time. First off, it is a masterpiece of a movie. It is also a downer par excellence. If you're looking for happy stuff, that picture is not the place to go.

It was released in December 1969 and rated M for Mature. I first saw it, in the theater, shortly after I'd turned 11. Either both my parents took me or my father did, I don't remember which. My mother might have still been too sick, since she'd suffered a major heart attack that had almost killed her in August of that year, when I was still 10.

I looked mature for my age as a kid. I literally had to carry ID with me so that I could see more age-appropriate films at the theater without being charged as an adult. For example, this is a shot of me when I was still in grade school:

8th Grade Portrait Shot

(That pendant around my neck is my Read Magazine Creative Writing Award medal. For years I never took it off.)

Now that I've seen the movie straight through as a 48-year-old, I'm still processing it. There was a lot that I "got" as a kid, but as an adult I am truly bowled over by so many of the nuances.

I'd always known that TSHDT had made a major impact on me, probably more than any other film I'd seen as a child, but I think I'm beginning to realize just how much. (There were films I'd loved as a child, but that was a different kind of impact.) I can point to fiction, read during that same time period, that had influenced my development as a writer; but I think this is the first time I've realized that a movie had also affected that early development.

Does This Adverb Make My Sentence Look Fat?

Running on Empty
45-cup coffee percolator on empty

My second draft of Covenant went off to Koboca late Saturday night, and one red pen has bit the dust. I hustled to do as much polishing as I could when I got word that the manuscript was about to go to the editor. For one thing, I wanted to be sure we had no duplication of effort, since I'd already changed the tense from present to past and broken up the chapters into smaller pieces, based on specs we'd covered in other e-mail exchanges.

I also wanted to do some verbal housecleaning. Some gremlins are probably still in hiding, because every time I've gone over the manuscript I've found something new to fix. And I've gone over that manuscript four times since I signed the contract two months ago....

The first installment of Book #4 has gone to my critique group and I've started drafting Book #5. The characters and their story have become an old flannel shirt that's soft and pliable and very comfortable against my skin. Covenant was a new shirt: a little starchy in spots, needing to be laundered and broken in.

New shirts look really pretty. One doesn't want to wrinkle them.

Subsequent volumes have informed the tweaking of the first one. I've established a rhythm. I know things now that I didn't know then, which relates to both the storytelling and the critiquing. I am much more on the lookout for unnecessary adverbs, semicolons, and other editorial bugaboos. The multiple tweaks are like the layers of an onion as I read for tense, then for tightening, then for structure, then for rhythm, and so on.

Or they can be like changing a tire, as Mary taught me one memorable winter morning in Massachusetts, when we'd chipped her flat out of a slab of ice from the previous night's storm. One tightens the lug nuts in multiple rounds, a little at a time. Do all the tightening in one spot at a time and you end up with an unbalanced tire and probably some bent metal.

All that massaging does an excellent job of breaking down my resistance to change. I might not be ready to restructure a sentence on the second tweak, but by the time of the fourth tweak it's begging for alteration.

And, oh lordy, the adverbs...

That bugaboo hadn't become clear to me until after I'd workshopped Covenant. I have Belea Keeney to thank for my consciousness-raising; she joined my critique group about halfway through Book #2 and zeroed in on the little devils. They hadn't bothered the rest of the group, but I've learned that some genres and styles are adverb-heavy.

I've made some drastic cuts in that department (as opposed to "cut them down drastically"), finding ways to get around some of the adverbs and eliminating others altogether. Adverbs aren't evil, but like semicolons they are something of a controlled substance. I was overdosing on 'em.

Now I'll see how the editor views it all. My next priority is to tweak books #2 and #3. I already know that the third volume suffers from flashback-itis. Some of that is necessary to the structure, but I can fix the rest by shuffling scenes around. I just have to keep tabs on where I am and what day it is, which can be challenging enough in the "real world."

I've also learned that manuscripts make excellent kitty launch pads for "lappy-poo time," which the cats have taken in shifts.

Meanwhile, one of my photos from last year is being considered for publication, enough so that the e-mail opened with, "Congratulations!" The only obstacle might be technical: I still have my original 300 dpi shot, but the photo is a crop that might prove too small at that resolution. I'd sent an 8x8-inch print made from a lower-res file. So, we'll see, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I've been asked to send the original image, including TIFF files on a CD, so the prospects there look good.

And I've sold two poems. (Grin.)

The robins have arrived early this year. Usually we don't see the migratory flocks until the last week of January, but they've been out in force and Mary thought she saw them in late December. I've heard that migration patterns have changed up north, too. We've got a strong El Nino going on, which could be a contributing factor -- and/or global warming -- and/or El Nino caused by global warming, etc. I can't tell how all the variables are playing out, only that they're out there doing something.

Today is play day. Then it's on to the next Tweak-Fest, Tense-O-Rama, and Adverb Round-Up. I'm polishin' up my pens and already seein' red.

Late Afternoon
Late afternoon sky on January 3, before the latest tweak-fest

Our holiday present from Mary's parents came after the New Year because it wasn't released until January 2. Mary's sister-in-law has just enjoyed her first novel publication. You can read more about Gerri Russell's historical romance The Warrior Trainer here.

I think it's way cool that Gerri and I have both been working at this for years and are now bookending 2007, as it were. She gets to start it and I come in close to the finish, a month after the second novel in her series is released. (I have nothing official yet to say about my #2, but stay tuned.) Then we get to see what 2008 has in store. We live on opposite coasts, but I finally got to meet Gerri when her American Title II Award conference in Daytona Beach coincided with the trip Mary and I took to St. Augustine back in May.

A Hole in the Sky
A hole in the sky on January 3

The Poets & Writers Speakeasy Forum has a thread entitled, "secret thoughts of writers." The person who began the thread listed eight, ranging from declarations of genius to fears of idiocy and various spots in-between, and solicited more.

Here's the one I added for me:

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"Never mind the Nobel Prize! My series will alter the Zeitgeist and become a cult classic for generations to come, who will dress up as my characters at conventions, pen their own fan fic and parodies, and be inspired by my story to Save The World."

Okay, I'm slinking back to my corner now.... :)

"Oh -- and did I mention all the doctoral dissertations it'll spawn?" ;-p

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Thanks to Joanne Merriam, responding to a Speakeasy thread about worldbuilding, for providing the link to Patricia C. Wrede's Worldbuilder. I slapped that URL right on my Writing, Editing, and Research Resources page with the following blurb:

"Contains just about every conceivable question to consider when you're worldbuilding (i.e., determining the details of the environment in which your characters exist). The site is geared toward fantasy worlds but is applicable to real worlds as well."

It is a phenomenal list.

The Night Before Full Moon
January 2 moon, about 30 hours before Full

A while back I was looking for the origin of the quote, "Writing is easy. Just stare at the computer until beads of blood form on your forehead." Turns out it depends where you look.

It's ascribed, in various versions, to Dorothy Parker here; Parker, with Mary McCarthy offered as an alternative here; Gore Vidal here; Gene Fowler here; Anon (paraphrasing Red Smith) here (which is where I drew the version quoted above); and Unknown here.

Red Smith, one of the most popular sportswriters in the US, won the Pulitzer Prize in 1976, though "beads of blood" does not appear in this list of his quotes. I did, however, find what may have been the original quote ascribed to Smith: "Writing a column is easy. You just sit in front of a typewriter until small beads of blood appear on your forehead." So wrote Walter Pinkus to Michael Swaine, editor-at-large at Dr. Dobb's Portal: The World of Software Development.

Of these sites, my favorite is the Quotes on Writing. I particularly adore Winston Churchill's: "Writing a book is an adventure. To begin with, it is a toy and an amusement; then it becomes a mistress, and then it becomes a master, and then a tyrant. The last phase is that just as you are about to be reconciled to your servitude, you kill the monster, and fling him out to the public."

Night Cloudscape
January 2, photographed at 2:58 AM and tweaked to bring out the clouds. A much-overexposed Moon is at upper right. The star Sirius is at far middle left.

Bonus Pitch: The stepson of a writing buddy is part of a team on a mission to get into the Guinness Book of World Records by constructing the world's longest chain of Wii straps. More detail is here.


Killing Trees

Keeping the Manuscript Warm
Daisy perches on my latest printout of Covenant. Mary pets her using two protective tabs taken from printer cartridges.

Covenant prints out as I type this entry. I had done my first publication-prep tweak on the computer, after the initial printout and workshopping edits. For my second run I'm working off hardcopy, which (as I've learned from past experience) can reveal all sorts of glitches and missed errors, both editorially and from The Joys of Reformatting. Right now, multi-tasking around here means keeping an eye on the printer to make sure I don't run out of ink, answering Daisy's insistent meows while avoiding a paper avalanche beneath her capable and adorable paws, composing this entry, and reaching half-blindly for cold coffee while making sure my cat's tail doesn't become a stirrer....

It's all right the coffee's cold. This is Florida. It's warm here.

Fortunately, I've just gotten ten ink cartridges, and I still have 6000+ sheets of paper at my disposal. That's one 10-ream box plus two reams still in a second box plus the remains of an opened ream here on the floor. Thanks to a deal that got me three boxes for the price of two I've been flush in paper for a while, though being part of a critique group means I make roughly five copies of everything, including the almost 1,000-page trilogy manuscript my buddies have just been through. Book #4 is another 550+ pages. (That's Times New Roman, not the market-preferred and roomier Courier, which has added 100 pages to Covenant alone.) We workshop small chunks at a time, so I estimate they should be done with that one by May of 2008, provided I make it to all the meetings between now and then. I've missed only one in the almost four years I've been in the group, but if all goes well I may be traveling a bit to promote Covenant once it's actually published in November.

I have discovered that, in Word, if you search for all instances of italics and replace them with underlines, you will get words both underlined and still italicized. If you then eliminate the italics, the italicized (and now underlined) words will vanish. You have to search for italics and then replace them with underline plus no italics.

Have I mentioned how fanatical I am about backing everything up? (I know I'm getting underlined spaces and tabs that I don't want, but I can deal with those on the hardcopy. Disappeared words are somewhat dicier. I try to avoid those.)

At least I remembered to go through my persnickety printer menus and make sure I had everything in Draft mode, portrait rather than landscape, and black ink cartridge only. And there are so many redundancies in ways to set reverse print order that I've had printouts that didn't know whether they were coming or going.

Meanwhile I've e-mailed my first submission of 2007, now that a reading period has opened up. Let the Games Continue!